Trying for perfection

11th May 2012

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Control

I really don’t know the meaning to this word anymore. 

I have NO control. 

 I wake up everyday telling myself I can do this but you know what happens??

at lunch time I binge and I know what I am doing I hate myself for doing it but I CAN’T stop. 

After all is said and done I feel aweful and think of “how I can fix this” and you know what?

 I can’t!!!!!!!!!

I come up with a million plans that all sound “wonderful” I stick to it till I get home (ugh) at home I binge its a never ending cycle

and

I can’t get sick ever I use to be able to at a drop of a hat and now I think of a million reason why I shouldn’t and I listen to those reason (what is wrong with me)

I think my not eating has turned into binge eating

UGH HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!

Tagged: pro ana

11th May 2012

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What is up with the tags

Why is everything that is tagged in ana all nasty. Im tired of seeing it come on people!!!!!!!!!!

13th March 2012

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03/13/2012

It is 11:54 and I have not had anything to eat! I hope I can make it the rest of the day.  I am getting off now and going with the MIL to get her dress for the wedding (help me) she never eats so I’ll be okay

8th March 2012

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Avocado-free Guacamole

(Makes about 1 and 3/4 cups)

• 8 oz asparagus (34-36 skinny spears, ends trimmed)
• 1 cup plus 2 tablespoons peas (I used 5 oz frozen, thawed)
• 2 tablespoons mayo-type spread (such as Veganaise or Nayonaise)
• Juice of 1/2 a lime
• 1 1/2 tsp minced garlic
• 1/2 tsp cumin
• 1/8 tsp salt
• 2 tablespoons diced red onion
• optional: 2 teaspoons dry cilantro
• optional: sweetener if desired

Steam the asparagus just until soft, then combine all ingredients (except onion) and blend in a food processor until very smooth. Stir in onion (you can omit if desired). Fridge until cold. (Or you can steam the asparagus in advance and chill them, so your dip will be cold after blending.)

Per 2 tablespoons:

• Calories: 15
• Fat: 0 grams
• Carbs: 3 grams
• Fiber: 1.5 grams
• Protein: 1.5 grams

High in Potassium, Vitamins A, B, C, and Folate .

From chocolatecoveredkatie.com